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Life has bizarre timing that I don’t often notice until much later. I think I just ate a rotten potato. I feel like I’ve been wearing an elephant as a stole. Why do I need an explanation for everything? How much of this is my own fault? Who gives good free massages without expecting a favor in return? Is there such a thing as unmotivated kindness? How many times will I throw up tonight? There are many thoughts that I don’t quite grasp in my own mind. I’m a tortured, tangled, terrible mess. How can I use this to my advantage? 

And in an instant, I forgot what it was like to kiss you. I remember your embrace, your warmth and your love. But, the taste of your lips pressed against mine eludes me. No doubt this is just another step in my recovery of my addiction to you. You have given more pain and more pleasure than any man. You’ve steered me down dark paths whether you meant to or not. I saw clouds shimmer with gold on the gloomiest London day because I was with you. You left me broken and alone. Fate can be so cruel. This is not our time. Maybe it never will be again. I hear you never truly let go of a first love, and I’m glad you could be mine, except that it has been so tragic to realize that we are no longer lovers. I am ready to accept love from someone else. I miss giving all of my heart away. You’re the one missing out. 

Run with me. Not just across the earth, but beyond. Let’s soar past the stars and find out what’s next. I don’t need a hand to hold I need a partner in crime.